I'm so far away, but I can smell it
getting closer
all my body gets anxious because I'm getting the taste of it

I don't care that I fall every two steps
I get up and go on, and it hurts less each time
and even when I seem to be stuck I start feeling like I'm getting somewhere...

it's strange because people from outside see like I've moved really fast and they even write about it
I feel like I'm always in the same place and very far from where I want to be, but at the same time something is growing inside me, and I'm getting stronger and better, like I'm building a structure that is what will sustain me when it actually happens....

Some day I'll get really good and then the gameboard will get much wider

I fall and I raise again

that's what I love about life
I love the game
I love playing

I don't care about winning as much as I love playing
that's why I loose and win all the time and both are interesting

I went to the Casino today, and I saw all these people loosing and winning money, mostly loosing, and I do the same thing, only that I get more thrill out of betting in real life, and I feel I have much more to learn

but is just a game in the end, and I guess if i lost it all, I'd just have to get some new cards and start all over again